if I'm not going forward- I'm going backwards

I have been thinking lately (weird), about life and bad things happening to good people and about my faith. As a youth I had unshakable Faith. I used to bear my testimony and say that I look forward to trials and tribulations in my life to help me to grow and become even stronger. I just knew whatever was thrown in my path I could get through it. What has happened? I now pray that everything will go smoothly and that nothing will go wrong, I get upset when something bad happens to good people and question - WHY? Why is this happening?

This has been an interesting week. Everyday this week (6 of the 7 days) I have babysat kids,either for the whole day or part of the day with one sister in law who just had a baby and another sister in law needing some extra help, a best friend whose grandfather in Utah passed away and left the kids with husband who works, and having it be my co-op day (babysitting swaps) -I have been, as Ben calls me, Mother Hubbard.

I had a crap day on Tuesday, seemed like everything was going wrong, I was the target of an offensive judgmental comment from a silly old Gossip in another ward (she was talking to someone else and saw me and said, "I remember when you were in the singles ward and decided to go on a mission to force his hand" Wow what an awful thing to say to someone who doesn't even know me... Yah I am not going to go there, even though I really want to, that is not what this post is about, Later that day I was thrown up on by Lulu (projectile vomit) just as I was leaving and in a hurry to pick up my nephew from pre-school. I had to change myself and Lulu for the third time today thanks to an earlier event that was also very messy. Last event of the day -Ruby locked me out of her room and when I tried to take the door knob off neither one of us could open the door. I just about Had it. Ben came home and I took off, just needed to get out of there. Just as I was leaving my SIL Heather texts to see what I am up to and offers to do my hair. What a great way to end such a crap day.

All I am saying is I want to be that Faithful Katie I once was where a crap day, or family tragedy, or worry will not get me down or bring down my spirits.

PS things that make me happy: Lulu's gap front teeth, Ruby asking me if I love her, Ben winning me a wet suit from dress up day at work, and ease dropping (can't help myself)